Enlivening Emotions

Finally, you're Destined for Greatness as Life is calling you to experience Life's big adventure. May your warm aura Light up this world. Ah! What a time to be alive. It's like the way home where I hope you find your true destination. Every atom of you carries love energy in its nuclear. I know you'll identify it one day. Reflect and you'll soon find a perfect time to shine. It's just the beginning of your true evolution and true courage. A beautiful voyage of finding yourself will end by developing self-love. You carry the infinite possibilities in your mind, heart, body and soul so be ready for the surprises of life.

I'll never forget my birthday... Everyone was wishing me a Happy Birthday but there was no one to listen me actually... Why they were celebrating my birthday while I'm no worthy of deserving some minutes from their time. That made me feel broken. Every single wish from all of them was panicking me. People are there but they are not there. Still trying to manage myself. Still trying to make all of my tears dry... It was raining in the living room... I was dancing in that deadly rain of tapped emotions... I was having too much illusions in my mind... One million Suicidal thoughts... But there was no one to listen to me... I was standing on the edge... Even the person whom I trusted more than anyone also repeated the same... I was out of my senses... Trying to hide my pain, Everyone abandoned me all alone... I become witness of this rain... Inside my living room... 

When I was searching for you and you were offline. Your last seen was invisible. It made me feel anxious as I was thinking about you and trying to know how well you were feeling. Eventually, my intuition starts working on molding the direction of my efforts and I meet you. Would you like to know where did I meet you? Acha okay. I meet you in side (Inside) me. From the first moment, I started caring about your smile and your happiness, incredibly I found your symptoms inside me. I know long distance divine Relationship does not exist for people who live in this virtual world but I believe that every introvert or emotional person lives in the divine world.  They have their own world of joy which they live when they are all alone because there is no need for anyone else to breathe in that magical bloom of existence. I also take a deep breath in your bloom and that made me feel calm. 

By the very first moment, till I connect with the frequency of her Existence, I'm feeling that I knew her from the early stages of my life. Everytime I think of her, I got access to that universal sacred energy which is known as the Key of Joy. In her lapse, I'm falling in Serenity.  Let me get lost in you My Love. 

A smile has no language or tone. It's the mutest and cutest conversation. I was smiling on the intelligence of people. They keep working whole life for happiness and I opened a big box of happiness just by falling in love. I was laughing on people around me and smiling to align with her smile. Aakhir we have to prepare atleast one photo to decorate our drawing room with same smile. After realising myself engaged in one side love, I become in the air. Number of daily statuses on whatsapp increased rapidly. I adopt loud happiness and silent pain. My besties become my love guru in this first journey of mine.  Friend : Pahli baat to Use jaano Me : Okay let me try.... Friend : I mean use kis baat pr gussa aata hai. Ap use handle kar skte ho ya nahi. Me : Mujhe sab pata hai almost Friend : Firrst be the vest friend of her. Then be a Lover. Me : I'm same... Right now Friend : Support her in any conditions.. Especially when she is in distressed Me : ...

Before moving your eyes to any other line of this diary, remember this is my personal diary. Don't fall in trouble by ignoring any information Mentioned here. Writing this in your devotion with love if you can hear me Dear Cianzero - Your Anonymous It was at the time of June (27th). When the lockdown was about to open, something strange was going on with real me. I was dissolved somewhere between me and real me. I was having a hard time in terms of my mental health and stress. I was spending my whole day in regretting on small things cuz I'm emotionally weak. But the thing that was creating this problem a big pandemic was I fall in love with one girl. She becomes the answer to every problem of mine. One fine day while I was lost amidst the fear of loving someone and loosing him/her, one of my curious friends asked, " Pyar aur Maybe ek sath toh nahi aate na? Ya toh haan ya naa." Knowing and acknowledging the million thoughts and feelings running in my veins...

जो जीवन में मुश्किलें है मैं इनसे डरता नहीं, बेतुकी मजबूरियों से रास्ता बदलता नहीं।। रुक कर बैठ जाने से सफलता मिलती नहीं, एक बार जो निश्चय किया फिर जुबां हिलती नहीं। मुझे ऊंचाइयों को देख अब डरना नहीं है, एक भी कदम पीछे रखना नहीं है। मेरी मंजिल अब पास है मुझे पक्का विश्वास है, अब भय का विनाश है मेरे मन में एक सकारात्मक आस है। राह भले ही अनंत हो बढ़ता चला जाऊंगा, वक़्त को पीछे छोड़ दुनिया को एक प्रेरणा दे जाऊंगा।। These lines are Beautifully composed by Anonymous.